wow, this is my first entry ever since i signed up here.
well, i just suddenly remembered that i actually had a deviant art account since this new classmate (or is blockmate more appropriate?), Nicole Ponce told me she had one too. and so i thought it would be embarrassing for her to see that i haven't actually been updated this. now, well, it's kinda too "outdated" so i'm updating it. got that? LOL


oh well,
now, suddenly my life's changed drastically.
i still get up too early and get no normal sleep at all haha
but it's much much too tiring
but still is fun: especially since the kind of people i've been surrounded with are goofballs lol (did i say that right? it's confusing when i read it aloud)


today.
i must be imagining it or what, but i think people see me as something.... un-natural. not everyone, but well, some guys.
(i hope none of my classmates get to read this)

well, i got to school a little too early.
since i go to school alone, i didn't have anyone to hang out with--yet.
so i walked around for a while.
it was raining a little so i went under the shade in front of my building, and i noticed this guy who kinda sad-looking heading there too. i stood there for a while-- my eyes flickering around the place, watching everyone around, and eventually reaching reaching him. i couldn't be sure that he saw me looking at him, but then he crossed to the other side. i wonder why. do i look like someone with swine flu?


later.
i was walking with the girls (a group of blockmates i hang out with just recently), my eyes wandering again. in fraction of a second, it met the eyes of this of this guy who was under the pavilion (or so they say) with a group of other people who had their back turned away from us. from the position of the guy-- his face so prominent being the only person looking the other way, with the side of his face resting on his hand, while his arms are on top of the table, and his body twisting to face our way-- i could tell he wasn't just looking: maybe even staring at us. or worse: at me. i was shocked that i looked straight ahead so suddenly and i couldn't help myself from muttering, "kuya, okay ka lng?". do i really look stupid? or sick? i wasn't wearing particularly anything neon, so couldn't possibly stand out.
tick. tick. tick.
then i realized he looked somehow kinda cute -- even if i saw him for a "very" short time.


*blushes* i'm flattered.


(i really hope they won't be reading this LOL)


and then.
we were at this class. i think we were done discussing what to bring next meeting and we were just fooling around killing time.
i was laughing with my friends aloud (they're hilarious!) and then i let my eyes wander (again.) checking to see if we were getting too loud for our magnitude (we weren't even ten) and then, they met the face of the sad-looking boy from earlier. he was the only one looking our/my way and his expression ranging from irritated to mad; but actually attractive, cute even. i suddenly remembered a scene from the twilight novel: from the first 10 chapters, i guess. hahah. i'm not sure if i wasn't imagining it though hahahhah. but i'm i'm positive the he was looking, at least.


what could that be about???




i wonder when i'm gonna write here again..